FADZLYDIA. ; 031109

2011-06-28T22:21:00.000-07:00

He's really gone. Really Really gone. hp is not in use. facebook deact. omgosh.
ape2pun, im still waiting for the truth. im not letting you go easily. 2 years wasn't a game to me. and it hurts so much that you choose to run and hide rather than telling me why. love love love. im so fucked up.

anyways, my birthday is coming soon. i wanted so much to spend it with you. remember what we said?

today's 29th. 4 more days is 3rd July. you know how painful it is to know that im still yours but you're not with me? you know how hard i have to deny this pain? do you know how hard i have to deny you so that i can carry on with my daily live?
eventho to all my friends, it seems im trying to move on, but deep inside me, inside my heart, there's a place for you. still and forever. how can i ever forget you.

is being a dj the reason you left? have i made the wrong choice in supporting ur career? Mr Dj Ben, im still waiting for the truth. no matter how long you take, i will wait. cos i believe in this love n relationship. i was never fooling around. tho i made many mistakes, i know deep down i love you. and now, after all the mistakes i made, love is not that one main thing. i need to trust you and believe in us too. so i did. but u left. anw, im still waiting. im following what my heart says. i know there will be the time that you will come back and tell me why. how far you run, i'll catch up with you soon.

i dreamt many things about you. everynight my dear. everynight. yesterday i dreamt that you did this cos of another girl. like wth? but in the end you were begging me and telling me that you didnt mean it. you know, somehow i feel stupid sometimes. i believe the lies you told after every lie. i believe all your lies again and again even when i know what's the truth. you know why? cos i thot it was karma. hahahhaha. nvm. if you're with another, thumbs up! i once said to you the limit of my patience. if you love her, apalah i bole buat kan? sabar je lah. since the day you left, i never thot of going to another man. so if you're moving on or thinking that you need a break and you're with another, thanks. thanks so much. apa-apa pun aku percaya kau punye type tk mcm gitu kn? aku cayekan kau sbb aku syg kau. mmg aku prnh sial dgn kau. tapi itu semua dulu. dan aku dh pon brubah utk kau. so lau kau nk uat alek, ntah eh. bab aku tahu kau tk mcm gitu. ergh!! stressnyer aku pkkn psl ni. kau tahu tk, aku rindu kau, nk pelok kau, nk jmp kau. kau tahu tk?! cpatlaa balik.. kau btl nye lari eh pa? tkpela. aku sbr je. sbb kau tk bodo. lau kau dh tknk aku, dh tknk idup berpasangan agi, kau akan bilang. aku knl kau lah pa. walaupun kau lari mcm ni, aku ttp pmpn kau. so, aku tkle tolerate lau kau dgn pmpn lain. tapi apelah daya kn. kau lelaki, aku perempuan. jadi aku tkle halang kau sgt. cuma satu, kau laki pandai. jadi ada otak, pk2lah.. pmpn kau tgh tgu kau k. haish.. rindunye dgn kau ni. kau tk suke ke "push too hard", k, aku kasi kau time. (: jodoh pertemuan di tgn Tuhan.

pa, im still here. right here waiting for you.

2011-06-22T23:31:00.000-07:00

SECOND POST OF THE DAY.

i saw this:
"ladies,the moment you stop chasing guys, that's when they start chasing you."

so how does my man know im not chasing him when his fucking phone is unavailable. damn!
but im proud. proud of myself. im stronger than ever. i barely cry. tho tears feel like dropping at times. but alhamdudillah. im proud for being strong. for me, us and him.

god bless aie wherever he is and always reminds aie in his fucking heart that he has a woman back here waiting for him. (:

2011-06-22T22:55:00.001-07:00

OK.
so today is already 23rd of June. and its been more than a week he's contacted me.
now his number is currently unavailable. i dont know what it means.
his bestfriend says that he never contacted him the whole day ytd. and aie JARANG contact saiful.
i dont know. maybe he's just covering aie's ass.

anw life goes on. its hard. but i'll wait. im still officially MOHD FADZLY's.and i wont let him go that easily.
i mean, i wont let him go without us talking everything out. he still has his responsibilities.

he's my love, my friend, my best friend, my boyfriend, my husband. we fight, shout, scream, cry. but i still love him and i know he does too.
maybe he's having his own problems now.
maybe he has his reasons for this.
maybe he has someone new but cant bear to tell me the truth.
maybe. maybe. maybe.

ya allah. i've been trying to figure out the truth. but i wont know the truth unless it comes out from aie's mouth.
i really still do love him. still need him. he can forget me. but he cant be able to forget the memories we have together.
and he wont be able to forget about the gift that we have till the day he breathe his last.
if aie's gonna hide all the way, i am so gonna find him. he needs to see what is rightfully his in front of his eyes.
he needs to take the responsibility as a man. if he wanna have a new girl, he and me havent officially split up. so im rightfully still his. and in addition,if...., aie cant run far. no matter who he marry, or dates, i still have a plc in aie's life.
but im sure aie is not that kind of person who would leave just like that and date someone different.
maybe not. ):

here is whre i wanna plan out my journey. and with papa missing, i have no one to share it with.

PUASAAA. (28July)
i cant wait. cant wait to puasa. cant wait for the bazaar.

Raya.
baju raya. kasut raya. smualaaa. cuma i hope papa will be bck to me before raya. i really wanna celebrate it with him. last year i didnt get to salam him and ask his forgiveness. haish.

"papa, come back soon. i really need you. we need you papa. i cant get thru u already. maybe you've changed numbers. but ape2pn, if ur gone for too long, im gonna find you. i dont know how. but i'll try. i dont know if i should find you now. maybe i'll check u out at your workplace. papa, i still love you. i'll still wait for you. the ring on my finger means alot. i dont wanna lose the man who put the ring on my finger. remember what we want for our future? im gonna listen to you. but if.... is the prob, i really dont know what to say. you used to say you love it. you used to kiss and touch it. i really dont know whre you are now. i hope you masih tahu yang you ni laki org. kita mmg blm nikah. tapi i rasa ikatan ini, hubungan ini cukup kuat untuk jadi sebab kenapa you tak bole curang. i pun tak akan. kawan biar ramai. yang cinta hanya satu. dan i tak kisah you nak kawan dengan sape2 aslkan you tahu di mana limits you as my man. i dont wana hear you sleeping with another. dont wanna hear you loving another. dont wanna hear you liking another. please. tompang2 tu smua, if thr's a good reason and if u know its just tompang, im ok. but not tompang2 sampai sayang ok. you sendiri kata you tk bodo nak uat benda jahat. jadi jangan jadi bodo ok?i love you sayang.mama akan tgu papa walau brp lama.i take our rship very seriously.so please.you're old enuff to settle down.and to me, that's very serious.so please.tell me serious decisions like this!this ring around my finger proves that im attached to you.if you take off the ring on ur finger, it just proves that i was never anywhre near important in ur heart."

love you papa.

2011-06-20T23:43:00.000-07:00

its almost one week that you did all these to me. whr's the man i used to know? why did you change into a coward overnight? how long you wanna run away from me pa? how long? i swear it wont be long.

i dont know why im not emotional this time. maybe i dh redha dan tawakal dengan apa yang you buat. but im still not satisfied that you ran away like that. why you so coward? i'll find you papa. i'll find you anywhre i can. i just hate it that you're running away. how much longer? you just gave up on us and run away? you gave up on us eventhough we don't have major problems? eventhough the solutions was already there? are you giving up on us?

see the picture above? its hari raya time! its gonna be puasa and then raya. well who cares if im gonna celebrate it without my man? laki kesayangan saya dh lari ntah ke mana. i hope everything is solve before raya. im so looking forward to raya. really. ((:

aie, to think i love u so much. to think i trusted u so much. to think i thot highly of u. ur just a coward. a fucking coward. a man with no balls. a man who doesnt respect woman. a man who treats woman like shit. hey, ur woman is willing to change for you but you ran away?? wth? aie, run all you want sayang. i'll find you soon. (:

tuhan maha kuasa dan maha melihat. (:

its kinda funny that...

2011-06-20T00:11:00.000-07:00

its kinda funny that the person i love most, care most about, cherished most and even willing to change for, could just leave me hanging like this.

left me without answers, no decisions and nothing at all. he left me with a huge responsibility which i think made him left bcos he was afraid.

the man i love most, the man who cried for me. the man who hugged me from the back. the man who made me happy no matter how much we fight. the man who dreamt together with me to build a future together. the man who also crashed my dreams by saying,"with ur attitude, i dont think we can be tgt in future.". he's the man who taught me that love was painful and sweet at the same time. he was the man who opened my heart and taught me that guys were not all the same. he was also the man who changed me from a girl to a woman. he was the man i cried very hard for. he was the man who made me cherished this two year relationship. he was my man. my dream. his/her dad and my lover. he was the one. and now he's gone. vanished into thin air. he does not want to answer my calls or reply my messages. he just sort of left me like this. he, the man whom i love, and always will, he is Mohd Fadzly Bin Ramli.

he left like as tho' i was never impt to him. like it was so easy. i know i've gave him shit. but he just couldn't wait for me to change. its only been a few months. i needed more time. but i guess, he gave up. gave up on evrything. it hurts me to know that the one we love can easily go by and treat us like mere strangers again. two years we love each other. two years of going thru almost everything together. two years and now, he's gone away. i dont know whre's his humanity. whr's his love for me.

my only hope, is for him not to run away silently like a coward. i want him to come back and tell me his decisions. and do it mutually. i dont want to be tortured living everyday like this. i am not ready to live without him. not ready to love another man after him. and im afraid, if he/she exists, im not ready to bring him/her to know that the papa that he/she had has gone away. i still want my man. i still want his love. i still want to be the lady who holds on his hand from now till he grows old. i wana be the lady sitting beside him on the dias and feel him putting the ring on my finger. i still need him. ):

i need him to come back and not run away from me. i need him badly. im willing to change everything if he comes back. i pray he does not run for long.

if he really goes away, my only way out is to find him at his workplace. or even find his friend. i want a clarification.

i try not to breakdown. i dont want to be the weak girl. i want to brave myself up and face all these challenges with a brave mindset. i want to be strong for myself. i need to learn to stand up after a fall. but don't push me too hard. i might just fall all the way down.

its a shame if he goes away because of freedom or another girl. he used to say he's not not stupid to do all those stupid stuff. i hope he wont go back on his words because its gonna be very embarassing for him.

fadzly, maybe you dont need me anymore. maybe you dont love me anymore. im fine. im rly fine. even if im not, i'll be. you taught me to be strong. i still love you and willing to accept you back even if you've done the worst stuff to me. im still waiting for you. i wanna have a hepi family. im still wearing your rings. im still hoping for you to come back. each night i pray for your return and pray that God never seperates us. someday, my prayer will be answered.

i love you fadzly. you're my heart and soul. no matter how much you try to forget me, dont forget the body that has our blood flowing thru it. till death do you guys part. i love you. come back soon. we need you. don't run for too long. allah is great. allah knows all.

i love you mohd fadzly bin ramli.

2011-02-02T07:41:00.000-08:00

happy 15months. i doubt you remember. right now you're out. you said you are with your bestfriend. i don't know. i don't wanna doubt you. i love you so much.

im sorry all these while i maade you angry. i try to keep you happy. i try to keep everything intact. help me pls. i cintakan you.

mungkin aku yang bersalah. jangan kau berubah. tapi apa kurangnya dirimu sering menyalahkan diriku. silapmu sering tertutup, salahku asyik tersebut. tapi tk mengapa. aku redha andai inilah lumrah percintaan bersamamu, sayang. aku redha dan sabar. kerana inilah yang ku mahukan. ku mahukan mahligai cinta ini. ku benar2 menyintai mu sepenuh hati ku.
mengenalimu adalah hadiah paling indah allah memberikan padaku. bercinta dengan mu adalah ujian paling susah untuk ku. mencabar kesabaranku, ketabahanku dan cintaku. namun, ku pasti, disebalik ujian dari-Nya, tentu ada hikmah yang tersemat. mungkin engkau diluar sana sedang bersuka-ria bersama perempuan lain. aku tak kisah. aku setia menanti. tuhan akan membalas. aku tahu, jika kau curang,itulah balasan ku. kerana Allah Maha Adil. aku pernah curang padamu. tapi aku berharap, kau bukan seorang pendendam kan?

happy 15months, dear. nice knowing you. im sorry for all my mistakes. i love you sincerely. remember when you first ask me what i look for in a guy? i just said, seorang yang ikhlas dan jujur kan? hahahhaha! im loving you sincerely and honestly. i really do. when it comes to me and you its always me and you. you don't wish me anymore. but i redha. ni semua sebab salah i dulu kan? i cintakan you. janji-janji i pada you bukan setakat kata-kata jek. i janji i takkan curang lagi, takkan tinggalkan you dan i janji you lah yang terakhir. i inginkan terbaik buat hubungan ini. i harap, you dapat tolong i. tolong i jaga hubungan ini juga. peluang ini akan i gunakan dengan baik. janganlah you hampakan i.

2011-01-22T23:49:00.000-08:00

i don't wanna do this anymore. i really love you. i can't bear this. i will stop. papa, mama syg papa sgt2. so much that i don't ever want to lose you. that's the reason why i don't wanna do it anymore. now, you're out with epul to get present for your anak sedare cos its his birthday. and you haven't update me yet. i've been waiting fr your text from just now seh. whenever you're out with epul, you won't update me properly. why?

honestly, im shock. you actually prioritise epul more than me. "lau i tk kuar dgn you, i tau i tkkn kehilangan you pun." "i kuar dgn epul pun sbb i nk dia tahu yg i am his only kwn and that way he won't 'rosak'." haish. papa papa. why lah you think that way. don't your girl need some attention from you too? don't you think so?

"A guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep.<3 Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you.<3 The one who turns to his friends and says, "that's her”."

you always say im pretty.no matter what i whre.you USED to call me back when i put down on you.but now, its the other way round.you don't see the sceneries with me anymore.and you don't stay awake to watch me sleeep.you just kiss me to sleep.you kiss my forehead, means you love me and you don't ever wanna lose me?you don't even bother if i am sweaty or not, cos to you, im the same.and you always hold my hands in front of your friends.and you always tell me not to use alot of make up.right?you mentioned how lucky you are to have a girl who loves you like i do.and you know "its her" the moment you saw me @ friendster.

i trust that everything stays the same. you know, i love you soo much.

bini mane tk syg laki dia? hehe. same dgn, mak bapak mana tk syg anak dia?

2011-01-09T05:29:00.000-08:00

haish. something happen. it happen becos of me. my fault. you mistook my words. please, i don't want you to leave. im nothing without you. i don't know how would i be without you. who would be thre to take care of me like you did. who? i love you mohd fadzly. i can't replace this love. no i can't. you mean alot to me. serious. please. you off your phone. its hurting me badly. it does. i don't know if your batt is flat or what. but its seriously making me worried. my eyes hurt from crying. my body hurts from the continuous breakdowns. haish. only Allah knows how i feel. i don't know what to do if i lose you. i don't know. serius. why is this happening? i love you so much pa, i really do. why?

2011-01-02T18:21:00.001-08:00

my 14th with him! ):
and its 3 days since he contacted me.
i call, he's phone is ringing but no answer.
why do me like this?
it hurts me.
each nite i pray that Allah gives me the answers. and that he listens to my prayers.
i nid the strength. i nid Him. i nid Allah now.

why when i do silly things, i don't think of Allah? bila sesak je, ingat Tuhan.
as targhfirullah alazim.

papa, come back to me and explain everything. pls don't leave me hanging liike this. its killing my inside so badly. i don't wna die of heartache. pls? you know i love you but what's happening.
if you're really sick, why didn't anyone update me? why? whre are you? what are you doing? how are you? keje ke tk?

mohd fadzly, happi 14th month with you. may Allah bless us and love Fadzlydia just as how we love it. insya allah. i love you mohd fadzly. i be waiting for you. no matter how long it takes, mark my words.

2010-12-24T18:55:00.001-08:00

olrite, imma start posting again.
my blog's not been alive.
and who cares but imma post cos im bored.
hahah.

well, let's talk bout yesterday.
aie was supposed to meet me but he was in jb. and all the way i waited for him. it seemed like he was not gonna come. becos he did not rply any msges of mine. then arnd 5-6 he called using his number. happy banget. he surprised me! hahahha.
so we went out.. alek arnd 10.

nak pegi 13 cells ytd.but something cropped up.as usual. =_=

oh well my dec full of pit and chalets...
the calendar in my phn is almost full with plans.
i like.

and, semester's starting soon. 1 year 6 months to O's.
see how fast it is..

Fadzly and Lydia?

everything's cool. everything needs alot of patience..

i love him and he loves me.

Hanya Tuhan yang tahu.

2010-04-08T09:00:00.001-07:00

Its 12 am sharp ryte now as I am typing this post.
Gosh.
So late and I ain't sleeping.
Not tired.
Hahaha.
Just got home lah.
I went dikir training just now.
It was pretty hilarious lah.

ayte, now i dont know what to post.
anyway i created a blog just for me and fadzly's stories.
if you all wanna read just search 3rd November 2009.
=)

2010-03-21T07:35:00.000-07:00

Alright, holiday sucks.
& today's sunday.
Tmr's school.
I wanna sleep on.
I hate early school days.

Pretty busy with assignments here and there.
I am gonna wake up at 5 tmr to get everything in place.
I hate school.
But I must work my way through.
Haiyaa.
Its oke.
Susah sekarang, senang kemudian.

boyfriend is great to me.
hahaha.

yesterday performed at toa payoh south cc.
cool!
anyway my heart is berdebar-debar-ing for Mega Perdana.
Hehehehe!
can't wait.

2010-03-16T06:41:00.000-07:00

Now i am blogging from boyfriend's itouch. Cool seh. Only now did i realise that i can blog frm here. K la. I g mamam dulu.

2010-03-01T05:52:00.000-08:00

, alright babies, im gna post a pretty long one tnyte.

, firstly, i'll just update about today. a short short one. i went to wdlnds to meet my friends. then, proceeded to marsiling to grab some stuff. i bought a set of purple undergarments! hot you know. then went home. short kan update ni?

, now, i am gonna reflect upon the previous post.
i don't know why i felt that way. maybe because i'm too insecure. too scared that he might go. but now, i feel so sure that he is the one that's gonna be my pillar of strength from now on. he wants everything for me. everything that is the best. he'd rather not have it than to see me live without it. all this while, i have been too selfish. i've always been materialistic. but today, i've come to realise that sometimes i don't need all the material things. i just need him. i feel so bad. now i know how much he loves me. and i know how much he wants me to live perfectly. i shadn't shortchange him. i will treat him equally nice. i love him.

, no matter where we gonna be in future. or who we gonna be. i will remember you always. i wanna live with you. i wanna have your beautiful babies. becos i am so convinced he/she will be handsome/pretty. LYLY. she's the glue that's gna keep us together. no matter where she is right now, i'm sure, she's watching over us.

fadzly, you've once said this to me :
"Im your boyfriend and husband.
The father of our child, the grandpa of our grandchildren and the ancestor of our generation."

I'm gonna hold you to that.

2010-02-24T07:31:00.000-08:00

I cant upload pitchas today.
Sedih per.

Hellu PEOPLE.
Hellu READERS.
Hellu little one up above the sky in the heavens!

Currently just updating my blog.
Blog-hopped tadi.
Anyway I have a post for FADZLY.
Krg jgn marah yer.
Tiz is my only way of saying it to him without being to harsh!

*FADZLY*
-

, you, selame ni i tak pernah pun pk nak tglkan you. and selama ni i tak pernah pun takut you tglkan i. tapi sejak kebelakangan ini, i asyik takut gitu aje. bukan takut i tglkan you. i takut you tglkan i.
, do you feel what i feel when i tell you about the dream? i bet you don't right? because you did not even feel her. you don't even know about her. but when you do, she's up there. stop trynna' act like you care. because i know you don't. one day, you'll leave me too rite. i know deep inside, "dia" takda makna bagi you kan? don't deny. its oke. i don't mind. because i don't expect you to waste your fuckin time with me. you wanna leave me one day, go ahead. i'll fix everything up myself. because i know that someday, the person i love will leave me. and the gut feeling tells me that "dia" is the start of our storybook and also the last heroine in the story. and no more story shall go beyond her right?
, its oke. its alright. i'm fine. just don't hurt me too deep. all this has left a fuckin dark stain in my life because its almost impossible for me to forget this. maybe its easy if i want her to go. but its not easy because it was against my will power. and thus, its gnna last in my memory. do you get what i'm trynna' get to?
, fadzly, will i ever regret knowing you? will i ever remember you, not because of the happiness we share, but because of the pain you might inflict on me? will i remember you because of the most stupid mistake i made?
, i really need your answer. because of this, its making a slight pause in my entire daily thoughts. i can't get over the feeling. do you really love me? do you mean what you say when you said that you wanna be with me till we turn old? why am i having all these thoughts? you may ask that. know why. cos' i'm goddamn insecure now. like obviously. would i wanna lose you, lose my pride and my dignity all at one go? i just hope you won't forget that all that has happen has made an impact in my life. i don't know if its meant to embarass me down and out or to teach me a lesson. hence, i wanna always be with you so that it will not turn out that way. because when it comes to me and you, its always me and you. susah senang kite bersame kan?
, don't leave me. i don't know if what i typed has made sense but these are my feelings. do take them into consideration.
, i love you so much.
xoxo

2010-02-22T05:56:00.000-08:00

I love everyone.
Thanks for those who were asking me whether i am fine or not.
Thanks for your concern aye.

I'm olrite already.
I've recovered.
Now I love fadzly more.
Hahah. How pathetic.
He treats me better now.
EXTRA CARING.
Semue extra la.
Hahah!
Till death I'll remember you papa!
Becos' your blood and mine runs in one soul now.
May God bless it.

he has been so caring la!
ahhaha. if monster is here, he/she would see how caring papa is.
hahaha. k la tkpe. no link.
hmmm, that is all for today.

2010-02-18T06:27:00.000-08:00

Second post of the day.
Isn't that picture above beautiful?
Just looking at it, can make us appreciate the beauty of Mother Nature.
Thank God for the beauty he has injected into the surrounding.
From him we come, to him we return.

Had very little activity in school today.
Tummy hurts.
Now now..
I wonder what the little one is doing up there?
God bless.

Boyfriend has been forcing me to take the medication.
But he does not know how awful it taste.
Moreover, he does not know the pain I am going thru'.
Mentally and physically.
I really hope this is all a dream.
A dream.
But it seems so real.
So, this must not be a dream.
It happen too fast.
I don't believe it.
But it had happened.
Gorsh!

2010-02-12T23:09:00.000-08:00

" Terima Kasih Cinta - AFGAN "

Tersadar didalam sepiku
Setelah jauh melangkah
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekap tanganmu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semuaaa kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

Tanpamu tiada berarti
Tak mampu lagi berdiri
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekapan tanganmu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semuaaa kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

Papa, this song is for you.
Tomorrow will be the FIRST valentines' day together.
I love you with all my heart.
I won't hurt you again.
I've done so much wrong but you have never given up.
Instead, you will make me smile each and everyday without fail.
Like they say, there will always be sunshine after each rainfall.
This applies to our relationship.
I sayang you seorang sahaje.

2010-02-10T06:07:00.000-08:00

Sorry lama tak post..
Been busy.
After Piala Ilham is my trainings for school Multi-racial Dikir Barat Competition.
Been busy.
On Friday, Dikir Xinmin will be perfoming.
Wooohooo!
Next up, Mega Perdana 2010 and Piala Suara Serumpun (BOYS) 2010.
Wahh!
Makin berdebar hati saya.

See that picture above?
Yeah, just wanna say that ALHAMDUDILLAH, hubungan saya dengan Fadzly masih berkekal kukuh tanpa goyah. Mudah-mudahan tercapai hajat. Insya'allah.

Currently, I am busy catching up on my studies.
I must make it this year.
I must go to lessons and classes with a learning attitude.
Then, I can achieve my goals.
Insya'allah dengan kuasa Tuhan, dapat juga dikurniakan impian lydia.
I nak jadi LAWYER.

Valentine's day is coming!
Hahah.
14 February.
Its also Chinese New Year.
Cool rite?
Hahaha.

Anyway I am looking forward to the TV show " BLUE HERO ".
Its on Friday at 10.30pm on Channel 5.

people, i got to go.
updating again.
love ya readers.

2010-01-26T06:28:00.000-08:00

sudah lama seh tk post.
hmm.
aiyo.
skrng ni makin ramai org suke spam org lain nyer blog.
bey blog owner tu maen hantam ajer tudoh2 org.
hahah.
beh nk step check IP address.
ler, lau org tu tk kurang ajar dgn saye, saye tkknk krg ajar balik.
jadi kalau nk sembarang tunjjuk jari kat org, tlg siasat baik2 dulu yer cik adik oi?
tk semestinye dade anak means awak tu bkn BBN.
saye terpakse la ckp kat sini psl lau kt blog awak, nanty awak ckp saye maen spam2, tag smbrgan.
anw kn.. awak ckp saye BBN, tapi awak sendiri sikap Budak Baru Naik.
siape nk buang mase pi carik2 org.
tu game dulu2 main yer.
skrng kite semue tkde nk carik org, kite carik ilmu.
jadi lau awak nk ckp saye BUDAK BARU NAIK, awak cermin diri awak sendiri.
awak nmpk reflection kn? itulah, budak baru naik!
hahah!
saye harap awak boleh 'grow up'.
dade anak kn? jadi saye anggap awak da matured la.
so awak stop maen ni game semue boleh tk?
sebelum awak ckp sesuatu atau buat sesuatu, tolong pakai akal, pikir yer.
[ ni la bdk zmn skrng. nk tunjuk fanare ajer. maklomla, SA. Seek Attention! ]

anyway, still going strong with dearest boyfie.
lagy 8 days.

2010-01-18T05:58:00.000-08:00

as it says ' HOT MAMA! '.
hahha!
life's goood.
[ woo woo ]
HAHHA! =.=

M0HD FADZLY'S BEEN NICE~
♥ fadzly so much!
hehehe, we're in love!
chey!
i look forward to meeting him every evening.
we could share everything together.
and it is during those times that i could learn something new and teach him something new, too.
i really love those times.

sayang kau fadzly anak ramli!
hehehhe!

2010-01-15T20:25:00.000-08:00

PAPA!

(:

k, now im so fcking bored la.
hahha.
belum mandi.
heheh.
bushuk kan aku ni?
hehehe.
niways, later going out with boyfriend.
i don't know where to go sey.
maybe p jalan-jalan pat town ker, atau just spend time.
i pun tak tau.
hahha.

waiting for dearest boyfriend to wake up.
mcm babi sak dia.
hahha.
you know what he said to me when i said i didnt want to go police training?
he said, " kenape ma tknk p? ma nk tido kan? pemalas sak. asik membuta je. mintak2 jadi buta. hehehhe!"
kurang ajar per ko.
hahha.
pasal i always say he like to membuta.
hahha.

anyway, i don't know what to wear lata.
haiyo!
so little baju.
hehehe.
[ pdhl bnyk baju ]
papa, belikan i baju?
please?
[muke tk tau malu]

i still haven't do my assignment.
like wth.
exactly monday 0000hrs is my due date.
hahah.

k people, i wanna go mandi first.
then go and fine what baju to wear.

- chalobeteh.

2010-01-12T06:58:00.000-08:00

I have not been updating.
Sorry.
Been busy.
Dikir and NP.
So hectic sey my schedule.
Haix.
You don't wanna know.
[:

Things between me and boyfriend is great.
We sorted some stuff out already.
Its always like that.
That is how we keep this relationship from shaking.
And Aie has always been patient with me.
He said he will always be patient with me no matter how hard it is without uttering a single break-up word.
I love him so much.
Cuma Allah je yang tau how much I love and appreciate this boyfriend of mine.

Alhamdudillah, I got a boyfriend like him. Lao tak, I don't know how I am gonna make wise decisions in life.
He has always been there behind me, in case I fall/
Thanks, papa!
No matter how big or how difficult the obstacles are, we will overcome it as one.
As one, we're Fadzlydia.
6 months and 1 week to officially 4 years.
4 years to legal 18 and to legally HIS.
Hahah.
Chey dah plan ey.
Yeah, that's my plan.
Insya allah akan tercapai.
Amin.

31st January.
Piala Khas Ilham Dipersembah.
Will be competing in it against all national dikir barat teams.
Semoga maju jaya Nira Nyertika.

2010-01-07T01:34:00.000-08:00

Right now, Im just sitting down doing my paper assignment.
School's been great.
Many new changes.
Really love them.
And today, CG Norliza told us (DIKIR) that we gna coached new members.
Amaaaaak, first time just instructor.
Hehehe.
K diam.

Aie (FADZLY) has been great.
He's treating me nice.
Tapi I don't know why each time I start talkking about him, I get a strange feeling.
Hmmm!

I think, two nights ago, I dreamt of Farhan.
I didn't dare tell Aie becos' I don't want him to pikir bukan-bukan.
Of all people, Farhan.
Asal eh?
Ader significance ker?
Hehe.
I dreamt of Farhan coming back to me.
Baek kaper?
I mean, shocking kaper?
I don't know la.
Farhan's name has been coming out of my mouth these days.
Dulu I never like talkking about him.
But now, mcm everytime I blurt out his name.
What's wrong with me eh?
K, tkper.
I will try to forget it.

Moving on..
3 days of school..
Aie has been fetching/meeting me everyday.
Today he sent me to school.
Sweet kan dia?
Haha!
I know.
K shuddup ok.
No nid your commments!
:)

My leg hurts alot sak.
Been marching alot.
I'm becoming darker.
All because of the marching and drills.
Tkper, endure aje k Lydia.
I nidda hit to the gym again.
Look at my size man.
Wait, I'm still size S.
Its my tummy.
I'm boncet!
Hahah.
Dulu I always say people boncet.
Now, its my turn.
Moral: Never talk about people, later it will come back to you.
Hahahaa!

Meeting Aie later on around 6 plus.
I don't know what i wanna do man.
Heheh.
Each time I know I wanna mit him, I am so happy.
But why does he look so down?

2010-01-02T08:01:00.000-08:00

Happy 2 months, PAPA!

having known you since 31 October 2009, it taught me many things.
taught me the real meaning of sincerity.
3 November 2009 was the day i said," Yes, I accept you." .
I really wanted you to prove all your words to me.
Though i may not be able to sense and know your feelings, i am here to tell you ,
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
I may not be with you forever.
But i'm thankful to Allah for letting us meet.
We've passed through the 2 months.
No matter how tough it was, you never failed to be by my side.
We will be together till the day Allah forbids us to.
Insya'allah cinta kita abadi.
Dan, syukur i dapat laki mcm you.
No matter what, it will always be FADZLYDIA.
SAYANG KAU FADZLY.

with love;
lydia emilda.

2010-01-02T07:55:00.000-08:00

ni la countdown nyer gambar.
heheheh!
ader lagi.
tapy ni yang editted punye.

2010-01-01T02:32:00.000-08:00

Second post for today.
I kindda forget to wish 'Happy New Year'.
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

anywayy ;
meeting papa up later, i think.
dier nk sngt jmp.
tady came back at around 9 am.
balik, teros tido.
penat tao.
hahah!

now, just lazying around.
assignments semue dah abes.
happy doh!
tgh tgu print aje.

2010-01-01T01:35:00.001-08:00

I shall upload the pictures soon.
Countdown was somewhat fantastic.
Celebrated it with dearest boyfriend, Fadzly.
So awesome.

My resolution for 2010.
1 ) Not to go back to where I used to be and what I used to be. Not gnna go back to my past. Had enuff of it ol'ready.
2 ) Will try my best to prevent anything or anyone from breaking me and Fadzly up.

Insya'allah, Amin...!

Kay, aku syg dier mcm hell!
Hhahah.!

papa, without you, i won't know how to go about. becos' i'm dependin on you for everything.
how can i believe that this will last?
love you, boyfiee!

2009-12-30T07:22:00.000-08:00

time check : - 11.40 PM
20 min to 12.00 AM.
NEW YEAR EVE.
Countdown babe!

time check : - 12.06 AM
6 min past midnite.
planning about tmr with NyraDora.
so many problems sak!
haiyo!

papa tk kac my kwn, Raz ekot.
sad.
kalao Raz tk pegy cmner Nyra nk pegy.

k, tkpe.

ohke!
bored now.
seriously!

2009-12-29T06:41:00.000-08:00

Dearest Mohamad Fadzly.

4 more days to our 2nd monthsary.
Can't wait, y'know.
& tmr is countdown.
Can't wait to spend my new year with you, papa!
New year, new beginning.
But, I still want the old us.
No changing okay sayang?
=)

Here is what I love about you :

- your maha sweet kisses.
- your goodnyte messages.
-your patient attitude with me.
-your 'silent means no, lydia'.
-your soothing hugs.
-your laughter.
- your sacrificing ways.

Here is what I don't love about you :

you CONTROL me.
but i appreciate it,
thanks papa.

insya'allah kite akan kekal sampai 4 tahun lagi utk plan kite nk tunang.
hahah!
and another 2 years to nikaaah!
woohoo~ !
hahah..
i mean, i wanna kekal with you till, forever, till eternity.
papa, mama syg papa tau tk?
no matter what they say or do, it can never separate us.
becos without you, there can never be fadzlydia.
without me, there can never be fadzlydia.

2009-12-28T07:05:00.000-08:00

rite nw, i plan to stop entertainning the hate taggers.
hmmm.
suke hati krg la ey.
haha!
i went to compass point just now.
to eat and buy shoes.
papa wanted to eat chicky so much that we went KFC.
again.
its like, 3 days straight, kite makan KFC.
hahaha.
muke ayam pe kite?
lepas tu we went to bugis.
i bought my belt and my skirtt.
papa haven't get his shoes yet.
hahah.
kecian dier.
tmr i wna go and buy school books, then alter skirt with papa.
hahha.
he wna alter his pants.
bey we wna go makan i guess.

rushing thru' my holiday assignments.
stress.
k, one more malay question and then english.
fhuck.

papa, i love you so much.
hehhe!
hahhaha.
suke sak lydia.

2009-12-26T22:09:00.000-08:00

just came back frm east coast with papa.
3 couples went there.
gosh it was so damn kecoh.
first night tkde pape.
psl only me, anah, papa and aidil.
second night, kecoh giler.
me, anah, papa, aidil, zai, aidah & aniz [ aida's child ].
hahahha.
Jim Beam & Bacardi.
orange juice and coke sebagai air balas.
hahah.
laky aku tunggang tebalek la.
hahah.
kecian dier.
hahah.
& i knew all his secrets ytd.
thanks aidil and zai for telling me.
or else i would still not believe fadzly.
anah, thnkx too.

tady balek, dari east coast hujan lebat tau tk.
aku kt mtr basah kuyup.
papa maseh le nyanyi dlm KPE.

hahhaha.

2009-12-25T00:08:00.000-08:00

hey bitches!
this is to all those hate taggers & bitches who hates me.
[ as if i care if you like me or not ]
but, cut the crap aye.
get straight to the point.
this is to you guys.
i won't say much la.
just one thing i wnna ask you guys.
just get this into yr fcking brain oke.
what problem do you have with me even when i don't even know you at all?
here's the deal.
you hate me, don't come to my blog and say yr crap.
i am here to express myself and not impress oke.
if you hate me, find a date and we meet outside. oke?
that's the deal muthafhuckers!

2009-12-24T07:11:00.000-08:00

So sorry for not updatin'.
Tmr is CHRISTMAS DAY.
Haha!

2009-12-21T07:58:00.000-08:00

Sia-sia sudah kita jalin cinta bila hati s'lalu berbeda
Sampai kapan lagi 'ku harus menahan rasa kecewa di dalam dada
Seandainya kita masih bersatu, tak mungkin 'kan menyatu
Walau masih ada sisa cinta, biarkan saja berakhir sampai di sini

Tiada lagi yang kuharapkan, tiada lagi yang kuimpikan
Biar aku sendiri tanpa dirimu
Tiada lagi kata cintaku, tak 'kan lagi 'ku bersamamu
Biar kusimpan semua kenanganku bersamamu

Sampai kapan lagi 'ku harus menahan rasa kecewa di dalam dada
Seandainya kita masih bersatu, tak mungkin 'kan menyatu
Walau masih ada sisa cinta, biarkan saja berakhir sampai di sini

people, im gna update ler. hahah! soon soon.

2009-12-13T07:57:00.000-08:00

HELLO ONCE AGAIN TO MY ALIENATED READERS ;P
been kinda bored today.
as usual, i went out.
hahaa.
first stop : pasir ris. (my tempat lama)
jumpe my ex-girl. & her boyfriend was with her.
next stop : changi!
went to MagicWok for dinner.
slacked there till 9+.
msged papa & her replied arnd 8+.
wdf pey lmbt.
he at j.b
papa gna go vacation at 6 in the morn.
gna fcking miss him!
ahhah.
last stop : home sweet home, baby!
reached home aje, slacked kejap.
pening.
bey i text papa to tell him i am at home.
hmmm, then i on computer bey chatttinggg.!
hahh.
people, i wanna continue my assignment.
then watch dvd.
hahha.
see ya!

; I MISS MOHD FADZLY already.

2009-12-10T08:02:00.000-08:00

K updates for today.
Woke up at 3+, mkn & mandy trus siap. Nak kuar jmp Amin psl nk amek brg ar.
Then, reached hm arnd 5-6 gtuh. Tgu laky aku alek. Dier alek aje, my parents went out for appointment. Me&hubby pulak yg nk kene jage baby.
Sambil sambilan kite maen computer. Ngok youtbe. Naseb baby tk nanges2.
So hubby went to siap dulu while i jage baby. Then its my turn to siap. Baby pass pat hubby dulu.
While i make up, hubby masuk bey tanye "Nak kene make up ker?"
Hahah, siow ar dier.
K when parents dh alek, hubby and i kuar.
Went p.ris park. My girl pey pit.
Lepas the pit, we went makan at whitesands.
We fought. Tapi tk rabak oke.
Hhhaha. I mintak maaf with hubby and he mintak maaf and we made up!
Sweet kn kite?
Trus kite balek.
Dh smpi rmh, i took hubby's cisco jacket and brg2 keje, pass pat dier trus slm and he's off to keje.
Bsok hubby alek, kite nk p ikea pulak ar.
Nk my frames and some stuff for the house.

Fadzlydia sudah one month and 7 days old.! Yeah!

I Y [A] I E

2009-12-08T07:38:00.000-08:00

K i miss this peeps badly. My dikir budddieeeess! Hahaha.

K updates for today.

Woke up at 3 pm. Bathed and got ready to go to old house. Papa went there too. But instead i vaanned back with the movers as papa didnt take the helmet at home. Reached new house, took the helmet and went to Hougang Plaza. Bought groceries with papa & shopped aaround. Went home and did the katil fixxing with papa. My mommy cooked and we ate.. ( me & papa ate ) Then sat down and watch tv while waiting for time for papa to go werk. 9.30 pm papa left for werk. Send him to the motor, and handed him a letter. He was smiling away reading that letter.

Pasal besok pulakk..

Gna wake up at 1 +. Papa gna reach arnd that time. Gna go ikea tmr. & wdlnds to get some home stuff. Hahahha..

k chalobeteh.

2009-12-07T06:18:00.000-08:00

I Y [A] I E ; 031109.
k ryte now, i am just gna update a lil.
i've olready shifted to hg ave 2 blk 706. unit number tk perlu kn? hee!
very tired. been shifting here and there, didn't even have time to go out.
only went out ytd 06/11. went to wdlnd lama to get papa's pants. then to bugis to get his shirt and my belt.
papa had been helping me&parents with the shifting. good grace, he was a great help.

nary papa supposed to come. but dia sick. so takley. haix. i had a bad dream bout him smlm. i nk tell him tmr. haix.!

k tmr plk. following my mumy out at 09.30 am. siang kan.
papa cmg at 3 pm tmr.

k chiow.

2009-12-03T07:02:00.000-08:00

SATU BULAN.
Hehe.
Its one month tapy it feels like a year sey.

2009-12-02T07:54:00.000-08:00

I don't know what to blog about. :X

TODAY [02.12.09]
Papa supposed to fetch me at 3pm today. But instead he came at 5+ due to the heavy rain. We headed to Golden Mile Complex as he wanted to search for his Thai boxers. He wants to use it for his vacation laa wey. It cost $17 per boxer. And $69.90 for the original one. How expensive. I searched around for my shoes and waist belt. For countdown. Anyone have any idea where to get those items at a steal? Next, we went to Beach Road to have our dinner. I had Mee Kuah an he had Beef Steak. We had Sugarcane juice too. SWEET!~ Sedap you know. Lepas tuu kite p jalan2 and he send me home after that.

2009-11-28T02:14:00.000-08:00

Oke, right now, I am just sitting down in front of th computer and merely just chatting while typing this post. Papa is at home. He ckp aje he not jmp tapy tak msg2 pun. UHH!
Tady alek pukol 6.40 lebey. Hhaha! Smlm Papa fetch me bwh aunt's blk t 7.50+. Then kite pegy woodlands pasar malam. & lepas jalan2, Papa&I sat down to discuss about where we wanna head to next. Kite tknk alek siang psl Papa off. & i want to spend time with him. Instead we fought.. But in the end, he gave in and we headed down to Pasir Ris to meet my abg sdre Onnisa and the rest for a drinkking session. Tapy Papa&I never drink. Uh.. Lepas tuu kte p Changi nak kacao bapok. Hehehe. Lepas tuuh kte tkd plan. Papa bukak street directory and kite plan to go to Mount Faber. We sat at Mount Faber till 6+ then we went home. I immediately slept. Slept like a pig till 2+. & i missed my patrol duty. Haix!!
Nary saturday and aku tak kuar? Baek keper. Maybe besok I wanna kuar lerr. Hahaha. Imy papa.

OH YA!! Tady IBRAHIM msg aku doh! Hahah. Chit chatted for a while and then dier tak reply. And he was shocked that I have mataer. Hahah.

K laa. Chiows.

2009-11-21T23:05:00.000-08:00

2009-11-19T06:49:00.001-08:00

Just me against the music.

Kat Hougang Mall. This was when I just cut my hair. Freakking nice that time. Now its pretty cocked up.

Mohd Fadzly Bin Ramli & Lydia Emilda Bte Md Latif. I love my guy laa oke. Hahaha.
' When it comes to me and you, its always me and you. Fadz[ly]dia.

i said so many things. i said i loved him so. i knew i did. and i will do forever. i've ended my single life. because when it comes to me and him, its always me and him. i never thought this would happen. it felt so surreal.
; papa, it was a joy just knowing you, and an everlasting happiness being in love with you. the time spent with youu, means so much to me. it took quite a while to get me thinking. do i love you or just wanna play arnd? and now, i am sure. i love you, fadzly. although you don't let me do certain stuff and i've missed out alot with my girls because of you, i don't mind. because i started all this shit. love you papa fadzly.

2009-10-30T03:17:00.000-07:00

This sucks.My grades just sucks.
Aren't I concentrating on my studies?
If I did, then, why are my grades like this?

Hmm, people can't accept my passion.
Why can't people accept dikir?
What is wrong with DIKIR?
Does that WORD just mean so bad?
When my peers hear 'dikir', they just turn around and say, 'ohh well, you won't go far'.
but hey, its nearing a year since i indulged in dikir barat.
and i am proud to say that i love dikir and dikir is my passion.
nevertheless, i do not expect you to love what i love.
at least, RESPECT my decision and passion.

hey, i gtg laa. busy.

2009-10-12T22:20:00.003-07:00

Siak aje lydia niy. Prasan ehy?

Lysha and Lydia.
Namer nak samer aje.
Hahah.
Kte kan sedara?
Hhee!

2009-10-09T20:03:00.001-07:00

this post is for th girl whom i've loved & missed since i graduated from primary school.

babe ;

people says that your true friends are your secondary friends.
but i don't think so.
i want us to last.
i want us to be together.
& lastly.
i need our friendship to stay stong and never break aparrt.

i miss you so muchh.
i miss th times when we would laugh and make as if the world was all ours'.
i miss those times you stood by me.
you cry when i cry; i cry when you cry.
those times when we would play in th rain, walk over that memorable bridge everyday after school.
those recesses that we would eat th same thing, drink th same thing & share th same stories.
now i wonder, i ponder, & i think hard.
is th love still lingering around?
or have you forgotten about me, our friendship, those times we're happy & those times we're sad.

i remembered that time.
somewhre during exams.
we thought we failed SCI.
but, we got th SAME marks.
we were happy that we cried together.
do you remember that?
that timee, our graduation time.
the PROM.
we went shopping together, did make up together. styled each other.

ALL THOSE FUN.
i really missed it.
we used to sit together & talk about same interests.
we liked th same book - CHICKEN SOUP.
you remember?
we used to mugged together duringg PSLE.
& th most memorable thing is - th times we had at macdonald's.
we were inseparable.

PROM NIGHT.
we wore exactly th same dress.
how cute it was.
i still have that picture with you & me & mr LEE.
you gave it to me.
yeahhh, its true, i MISSED your laughter now.
during that video, you were all i could think of in my mind.

i DO miss those girls.
but i miss you MORE.
you were always there to light up my day.
you were always there to shine my darkest moments.
we had so much memories together.
don't worry, i've locked it up safely in my heart.
those memories can never fade away.

how i wish time would turn back.
then, i would cherish every single moment with you, deeply.
why did time have to go so fast?
2 years wasn't long enuff.
you know, i really miss you so much.
maybe words cannot describe this feeling.

; I LOVE YOU, TOO.

do contact me anytime aye.
85010569.
i will always be thre for you.
i am your best friend last time, now, forever & eternity, i swear.

2009-10-08T01:18:00.000-07:00

5 more papers to go peeps!
Hmm, DIKIR XINMIN's jalan raya is coming up on 15.
Though its kinda late but kite semangat RAYA.
Biasalaaah kater DIKIR.

After EOY I am gonna enjoy hardcore.
HAHA, i mean DIKIR.
Yeahh, i just missed the trainings so much.

Well, iym kinda bored now.
You must be wondering why I am not studying.
I study at night.
Hahahha.

Now serious talk.

Its been a while since I knew HIM. Uh, I was closer to him than my ex-boy. Recently, I realised that I liked him. However, I tried my best to convince myself that he is just my BEST KAWAN. Tried so hard, but I know I am deceiving myself. Hmm, but how?

Moving on. Like I said, I've moved on. But DADDY, you still make me fall in love. But, no! I am not ready for another relationship. I'd rather be single. No, no. Hmmm ...

UHHHH! i feel so bad. so bad. terribly bad.
Nvm forget about it.
Nira Raya was damn kecoh. Visit my facebook for pictures aye.

2009-10-04T05:43:00.000-07:00

Korang!
Iym back.
After rayer is eoy's.
Iym quite busy at the moment.
Gonna upload photos on the next post.
Now, iym gonna update you all on my life.

I am single now. I broke off with Isnor days before raye. It was a complicating ending. You don't wanna know. Heartbroken but I gotta move on.

About rayer...
It was fun dude!
Hhaaa! Gonna upload pic ya.

DIKIR?
Iym joining the outside grp. Nira Nyertika.
Hahahah, Cool kan.

2009-09-13T08:19:00.000-07:00

SEMALAM (12/9/09)

Went mumy's house. Then buka-ed there. Then went Pasir Ris with Yayat.
Thon-ned there because I went to my abang sedare chalet.
Met up with friends.
Those 32 peeps.
Hahaaa. Yat & my adek angkat, Syahril, was damn sleepy oready.
I wasn't. Hahaa!
Then in th morn gytuhh, old friend, Hazim, came. He just came out from hostel.
After a while of talkking, I went off to mit another friend, Aim.

..hey daddy. i don't know whad to say or whad to do. i just feel that i've wronged you too much. maybe soon, i might just pay for my mistakes. but, i really want you to know that, i never stop loving you. although it has been rough for the both of us, i am sure we can make it. insya allah..

2009-01-21T05:46:00.000-08:00

I am bored, freakinglish-ly bored.
Hmmmm...

Hmmmm..
I miss you seyyy.. Really, I do.

2008-09-24T03:03:00.000-07:00

Hmm, well, I found out something new today.
Guys CANNOT be trusted.
Guys ARE jerks.
Guys ONLY play with your feelings.
& Guys ARE stupid people.

To be specific, I meant Daddy.
Guys = Dee
Nice equation.
Happy with it.
((:

i held on to the promises you made. i believed in your words. i took myself of my lifeline, just for you && now, you are casting me aside. let me tell you this. you may think that you have many other subsitutes. but i got more. you're not the only guy that wants & likes me. fortunately, i told myself not to trust you wholeheartedly. in the end, this is what i get. if you meant to leave me, go ahead. i don't want to waste my time on guys that are not truthful. MOHDRIDZUANABDULMAJID. go if you want to, leave if you must. i'll never stop you.

2008-03-19T06:14:00.000-07:00

I miss Madeline!!
LOL.
Get well soon.(:
WTH.
I failed both Math papers.
I asked myself what's wrong with me.
Its like I just could not concentrate on anything.
I was careless and did not apply any teaching methods taught.
NVM.
I gotta buck up for other tests.
I cant afford to fail again and again.
Ya well it isn't anyone's fault.
Not you,her,him,they & we.
Its me.
So well.
I need to study.
signing off,
lydia emilda(:

2008-03-18T04:32:00.000-07:00

Homeworking here,homeworking there.
I did my homework and went through my PP for Math.
Mac was the place.(:
God.
What's wrong with the boys now days??...
They have something wrong with their mouth and maybe eyes.
Guys,no hard feelings yea..
Lol.
I am bored.
Homeworks are my enemies!
Lolies are my life-blood.
Dustbin No.7 is my BOYFIE!!
hahas.
No joke.
Lolies are my future husbanddd..(:
I am TAKEN!!
HAHAS!!
I love my lolie!(:
cinta is in the dustbin..
its RUBBISH lahh deyy..
hahas.
See lahh now..
I so bored untill talk shit!
"What shit is this??!!"(tian xin's fave lingo)
"Its shit!!"(miee response.)
Lol.
kk.
Before I say siao siao stuff I better sign off now,man!
LOL.
signing off..
lydia emilda<3

2008-03-10T02:35:00.000-07:00

Probably this is all I get for wanting to know the truth.
Being sick and tired of the games you played,I wanted the truth.
I wanted to know almost everything.
Like curiousity killed the cat??
So well..
Probably I should not even ask.
Its better to be decieve than to decieve.

Maturity doesn't chip in to help in this.
All I need is a little thinking.
And all you need is words.

I need someone new to heal everything.
And probably he has it.
But its just that it would not be serious.

Even if I hate you,it would not help one single bit.
Hating you is worse than knowing the truth.
I need no pity neither do I need you.
All I trusted was someone in life.
All I want now is a place where I can just let my imaginations run wild.
Not this world where imaginations are limited.

a very big Thank You to you

What Friends Are Worth For...<3 What All Are You To Me..<3

2008-02-16T00:04:00.000-08:00

Friendship is a Priceless Gift
that cannot be bougt or sold.
But its value is far greater
than a mountain
made of gold.
For gold is cold and lifeless,
it can neither see nor hear.
And in the time of trouble
Its powerless to cheer.
It has no ears to listen
Nor heart to understand.
It cannot bring you comfort
or reach out a helping hand.
So when you ask
God for a gift,
be thankful if He sends
not diamonds,pearls or riches
But the love of
REAL TRUE FRIENDS<3
---+<@

You may be out of my sight,
but never out of my heart,
You maybe out of my reach,
but not out of my mind.
I may mean nothing to you,
but you'll always be
SPECIAL TO ME<3
----+<

so lame..all this are from stupid bookmarks i got..
lol..